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Jack London (1876 - 1916) was one of America's most popular writers and
folk heroes. He held an enormous variety of jobs, never shying from adventure.
Though married, he soon fell into an affair with Anna Strunsky, a fellow
author who eventually caused his divorce. Paradoxically, London maintained
that he did not believe in love, yet he clearly displays some of its symptoms
in the following letter.
Oakland, April 3, 1901
Dear Anna:
Did I say that the human might be filed in categories? Well, and if I did, let
me qualify -- not all humans. You elude me. I cannot place you, cannot grasp
you. I may boast that of nine out of ten, under given circumstances, I can
forecast their action; that of nine out of ten, by their word or action, I may
feel the pulse of their hearts. But of the tenth I despair. It is beyond me.
You are that tenth.
Were ever two souls, with dumb lips, more incongruously matched! We may feel
in common -- surely, we oftimes do -- and when we do not feel in common, yet
do we understand; and yet we have no common tongue. Spoken words do not come
to us. We are unintelligible. God must laugh at the mummery.
The one gleam of sanity through it all is that we are both large
temperamentally, large enough to often understand. True, we often understand
but in vague glimmering ways, by dim perceptions, like ghosts, which, while we
doubt, haunt us with their truth. And still, I, for one, dare not believe; for
you are that tenth which I may not forecast.
Am I unintelligible now? I do not know. I imagine so. I cannot find the common
tongue.
Large temperamentally -- that is it. It is the one thing that brings us at all
in touch. We have, flashed through us, you and I, each a bit of universal, and
so we draw together. And yet we are so different.
I smile at you when you grow enthusiastic? It is a forgivable smile -- nay,
almost an envious smile. I have lived twenty-five years of repression. I
learned not to be enthusiastic. It is a hard lesson to forget. I begin to
forget, but it is so little. At the best, before I die, I cannot hope to
forget all or most. I can exult, now that I am learning, in little things, in
other things; but of my things, and secret things doubly mine, I cannot, I
cannot. Do I make myself intelligible? Do you hear my voice? I fear not. There
are poseurs. I am the most successful of them all.
Jack
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