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John Keats (1795 - 1821) led a short but brilliant life. At the age of 23
he met and fell in love with Fanny Brawne, literally the girl next door.
Tragically, doctors had already diagnosed the tuberculosis which would
eventually kill him, so their marriage became an impossibility. This letter,
written from Rome less than one year before his death, displays Keats' intense
and unwavering love for her.
March 1820
Sweetest Fanny,
You fear, sometimes, I do not love you so much as you wish? My dear Girl I
love you ever and ever and without reserve. The more I have known you the more
have I lov'd. In every way - even my jealousies have been agonies of Love, in
the hottest fit I ever had I would have died for you. I have vex'd you too
much. But for Love! Can I help it? You are always new. The last of your kisses
was ever the sweetest; the last smile the brightest; the last movement the
gracefullest. When you pass'd my window home yesterday, I was fill'd with as
much admiration as if I had then seen you for the first time. You uttered a
half complaint once that I only lov'd your Beauty. Have I nothing else then to
love in you but that? Do not I see a heart naturally furnish'd with wings
imprison itself with me? No ill prospect has been able to turn your thoughts a
moment from me. This perhaps should be as much a subject of sorrow as joy -
but I will not talk of that. Even if you did not love me I could not help an
entire devotion to you: how much more deeply then must I feel for you knowing
you love me. My Mind has been the most discontented and restless one that ever
was put into a body too small for it. I never felt my Mind repose upon
anything with complete and undistracted enjoyment - upon no person but you.
When you are in the room my thoughts never fly out of window: you always
concentrate my whole senses. The anxiety shown about our Love in your last
note is an immense pleasure to me; however you must not suffer such
speculations to molest you any more: not will I any more believe you can have
the least pique against me. Brown is gone out -- but here is Mrs Wylie -- when
she is gone I shall be awake for you. -- Remembrances to your Mother.
Your affectionate, J. Keats
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